Wednesday, February 27

One day down and One to go...

OK so Day one is behind me and I came home changed into comfy clothes watched some TV ate dinner and then tried to read over some outlines. Well that didn't exactly go according to plan because my mind is FRIED right now. At 8:30 I was starting to get tired which is about three hours earlier then usual. So I decided to put the outlines away. I am going to relax tonight get up tomorrow and get through Day 2. I just keep hoping that I knew enough and I have no idea if I do and I keep wondering if I am doing the right thing relaxing tonight.

Well that is the insight into my head while I am in between days of taking this test. I have no idea if I am any closer then I was last time but I know that I have a better handle on the information I just hope that I know enough to pass this test. I just can't imagine having to do this EVER again. I don't know if I will be able to crack the books and go through this. There are all kinds of things that I keep worrying about but I need to focus on getting through tomorrow and putting everything down in those essays that I know. I need to remember that I can do this as long as I don't let myself get in my way. I am shooting for a 60% that is it. I can do this!!

In case you were wondering how I was doing tonight. There is a little insight. Now I am off to watch some TV and go to bed.

Sunday, February 17

My Valentine's Day and a very Long 24 hours

I talked to my parents last weekend and they wanted to make plans to come in and take me out to dinner last week because I have the bar in less then 2 weeks and they wanted to make sure I was doing OK since they haven't seen me since the end of January. So they picked Thursday night since the weather was supposed to be bad on Tuesday and Wednesday. Which is of course was Valentine's Day but whatever not like I have someone to spend that with anyways.

So my parents get to my place and we drive over the restaurant and My Mom says she really has to go to the bathroom so we hurry across the street to get a table and I tell my Mom where the bathroom is. She goes the bathroom and comes back you can tell something is still wrong and she asks me if I have any Tylenol I told her I didn't but there is a grocery store right up the street I can go get you some what do you need? She was like no and asks my Dad to go get her bag out of the trunk. When he does and comes back she is looking and can't find them so I tell her to tell me what she needs I will go to the grocery store and get it for you. She tells me that she is looking for her Nitroglycerin pills to which me and my Dad are like WHAT?! So I have my Dad leave with my mother right then and take her to the Beth Israel Deaconess Hospital and I was going to settle the bill and meet them there.

She was given at least 9 nitroglycerin tablets and 2 morphine shots in order for her chest pain to subside and the crazy part was all the tests they do to find out if you are having a heart attack, EKG, Chest X-Ray, Cat Scan all showed normal it was only the blood work that showed there was a problem with her heart. The hospital was so full she was in the Emergency Room from 7:30 pm on Thursday until 2:30 pm on Friday I really felt like I was in an ER episode. Around 9:30pm on Thursday night the hospital had started deferring all ambulances and not taking any more patients. They had 50 exam rooms in the Emergency Room and they were all full and there was 20 other patients in the hallway that they had no where to put them. It was crazy and my Mom was frustrated because it is hard to relax when you have so much going on around you and you only have a sheet up for any kind of privacy but once she got a room everything worked out.

The cardiologist came down and started asking her questions and I know that she was sick of telling the story over and over again but you could tell she was curious about the fact that when my Mom had her last heart attack they weren't able to find anything when they went in for the Cardiac Catheterization. That my Mom gets these pains when ever she over exerts herself but she will usually stop and then it will go away. The doctor told us she was going to do her best to try and get my Mom in for a Cardiac Catheterization on Friday and she was able to do it. A Cardiac Catheterization is where they go into a vein in your leg with a small tube and a device that has a video camera so they can look around at what is going on in your heart and when they find the blockage they basically blow up a balloon to make the area wider then put in a stent to keep it from closing again. So they found a 90% blockage in one of the three main arteries in her heart and they said her other two arteries looked good and that they think she should be OK now. She wasn't able to eat or drink anything once she was in the ER because they weren't sure when she was going to be admitted and when they would be able to do the Cardiac Catheterization once it was done it was like 7:00 on Friday night and she had to lie flat on her back for 6 hours. The good news is everything looks good they released her yesterday. She has to stay home from work for the next week and has to follow up with her cardiologist and I am sure there will be follow-up but Thursday and Friday were very long days for me but luckily it all turned out OK. Just wanted to let you all know.