If I hear "X" One More Time...

OK we are in serious count down mode now. The test is this Wednesday and Thursday and I am pretty much accepting that I am going to live in the Suffolk Law Library except for when I am a sleep until 11:00 Tuesday night when they drag me out of here because I just want one more hour to go over ____. My friend Melissa who is also taking the bar just sent me a link to a law students blog and from the sounds of it he is taking the NY bar and Damn do I give him credit for that but anyway he had this as a posting and I have to admit it made me laugh at out loud. I feel like it sums up very well how I feel right now and I hope you guys can also get a kick out of it.


Weak statement of encouragement to bar examinee: "You'll do fine."
Why bad: I'll do fine? There's absolutely no guarantee of that. Even the indicators that I have at my disposal (practice MBE questions, amount of time studied, practice essays), which I have spent hours trying to interpret, don't tell me whether I'm going to pass. What does "do fine" mean anyway? Live through it? Pass? Not shit my pants? Besides, how the fuck would you know?

Weak statement of encouragement to bar examinee: "It'll be over soon."
Why bad: Yes. Yes it will. Is that supposed to be a good thing? At least with it looming in the future my fate is not yet sealed. Once it's over there'll be nothing I can do about it except to hope that the equipercentile method of scoring somehow works in my favor.

Weak statement of encouragement to bar examinee: "You can do it."
Why bad: What is this, a fucking Adam Sandler movie? Sure, I CAN do it. But the real question is WILL I do it?

Weak statement of encouragement to bar examinee: "I'm praying for you to pass."
Why bad: Well shit! Why did I even bother to study at all? In fact, fuck it - I'm going to St. Anne's and lighting some fucking votive candles right now so that I don't have to look at any MPT shit.

I know you people mean well and I appreciate the thought. And honestly, what else are you supposed to say? I guess it's better than, "Hey man, don't fuck this up or you just, like, wasted a hundred grand on law school."
Here's a link to his page http://cursedwithambition.blogs.com/cursed_with_ambition/2006/07/index.html

The Finish Line is Near

OK the bar is a week from today and tomorrow and how I feel about that changes very frequently. I am very close to where I need to be for the multiple choice part of the exam and I start to tell myself that I can do this and then I take a practice test and I am just right where I need to be and as most of you know I have never felt that writing is one of my strengths. Since that is the other half of the exam I was hoping that I would do better on the multiple choice questions and would have a bit of a cushion when it came to the essays. Of course I will never have any idea how I did if I pass except that I pass and really that is all that I care about. Now that I have a week left I am just not sure what is the best way to focus my time. I don't want to spend a ton of time on something that I am not going to need but how do I know what I am not going to need.

I am of course sleeping less and less and not really sure how I am getting up in the morning except for the fact that I feel like I need to get to the library and cram as much information as possible into my head right now. I know that some of you have been wondering where I am and others have been dropping me words of encouragement or listening to me completely freak out and I want to say THANK YOU! Thank you for understanding that right now I am not a fun person to talk to and it is nothing personal if I am not picking up the phone. Thank you for the E-mails and the texts that I am going to make it through this.

There are a few of you that I am going to owe drinks to when this is all over because you have been amazing. I am truly blessed by a good group of friends and lately I keep getting reminded of that fact. I am going to stop procrastinating now and go back and finish reading my Commercial Paper outline so I can get through Secured Transactions tonight too. I know doesn't that sound like some nice fun, light reading.